Playing the Bad

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“Games, Players, Bad Guys, Good Girls, Winners, Losers.” 

Have you been played by a player before? How was it? Was it bad or was it worst than that?

Tell you what, women these days always find themselves rooting for the bad guy.  Certainly, there are tons of variations when it comes to being bad. Bad meaning bad or bad meaning good or whatever.

A player is a player. He might be able to make your heart flutter but when he does, you have to have him go mental battle with you. Just watch yourself over beacause really, the last thing you want to happen is to fall hard on him. What’s so fucked up about these players is that, they’re breakable and it would take a real special son of a bitch to make them quit. A player always comes with a fatal attraction. Beware!

Unfriend A Friend

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There’s a fine difference between forgetting and moving on with your life. Unfriending a friend doesn’t always mean you are totally burying the memories to grave. Nope, it wasn’t like that at all. Funny thing about friends is that you never forget them. Not the name, not the face and certainly not the memories.

When the time comes and that friend decided to move forward in making a new life, you need to move forward too. It’s going to be hard especially when they’ve played so much special role in your life. 

Let go. Let them work on their own path and walk forward onto yours without them. This may hurt someone but sadly, there’s no other way. You might get ashamed or in denial of the guilt but it will pass. Either way, there are tons of people out there who can offer a much more genuine friendship that you’d never experience.

Cruel, but hurting someone was a part of living. Being inconsiderate was bad, perhaps a little unpleasant but that’s just it. It could be a process of growing and all you have to do is to always remind yourself, things can be out of control and whatever the outcome is, do not regret. As what the journal had printed: “Fate determines who enters your life; your actions decide who stay.” – Unknown.

17 Things To Expect When You Date A Girl Who’s Used To Being On Her Own

Thought Catalog

1. Expect her to do her own thing often and without letting you know, at least at first. It’s not that you don’t matter; it’s just that she’s learned to love doing what she wants, when she wants, and without asking permission or informing anyone.

2. She’ll probably want to take things slowly because she’ll not be used to all the attention. Don’t think she doesn’t like you enough, she probably likes you a lot; it’s just all new to her.

3. Expect her friends to be overprotective of her and to be suspicious of you at first. They’re not used to her being with someone and they’ll want to make sure you’re the kind of guy who will treat her well.

4. She’ll have a hard time letting you do things for her. Try not to take this personally. She’s just used to taking care of herself and it’ll…

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Getting Drunk

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Do you think there any benefits in drinking alcohol at all? Well for me, there is, certainly. 

For starters, let’s give it in meeting great people. Drinking will always loosen you up. It could make you feel relax, you’ll find it easy to communicate even with the people you are not so comfortable with. 

Drinking was mostly described as a waste of time, but people who often say that was the ones who are not doing it right. There’s nothing wrong in drinking; when you’re celebrating or reuniting with old friends, when you’re hanging out with your workmates or when resting during holidays or even when you’re just bored and you feel like being wasted. Nothing’s wrong with it and I wouldn’t call it as a waste of time either.

Yes, maybe you’ll gonna do something you’ll regret after. Worst case “maybe” is for you to wake up in a police station waiting for someone to bail you out. But that wasn’t always the horror of it.  Last thing you might want to happen is to get sick and suffer from the mother of all hangover the next day so your job, really, is to learn how to control it.

Okay, so in alcohol’s defense, I’ve also done so many dumb shits while completely normal so yeah, I don’t usually go with the blame it on the alcohol thing. Not bad, eh?

Plus, drinking can also be an escape, a great way to self medication. Nope, it wouldn’t help you solve any problems but it can definitely give you a great black out for the whole night or day to what time you would prefer. Go drink, passed out on the couch, have a great deep sleep then face the problem afterwards. It’s not that much but it’s a great lubricant in dealing with the rough times.

So, anyway… the thing about this entry is, I do really need a drink right now. Don’t ask. Just do.  Cheers!

The Statistical Probability of You and Him

You and Him

I dreamed of something interesting today.  I dreamed of him. Him. It’s been a long time not seeing him in my dreams. My first crush, my first dance my first love, yuck.. Hahahah, too much. Forget it! Let’s just get to the topic, shall we?

Crush.

Can you remember having this huge crush on someone? Someone you can barely talk and stay with? That childhood crush, celebrity crush, social media crush, that blogger crush or that crushes you’d never ever admit to anyone. Can you remember?

Can you remember giggling, drooling and showing off to someone? Can you remember trying to get a glimpse of him or her whenever they’re around? How about their voices? Can you remember?

Can you remember the days when being around him or her was like forever? Remember those times when your lungs forget to breathe and your heart goes way too fast? Yup, those times, can you remember?

Me? Oh! I remember mine. Crystal clear and I still think he’s the hottest goddamn man I’d ever laid my eyes on. Nope. No details for you here mister. *wink.

Can you? Right, so let’s continue with this infatuation-shit.

Let’s begin with an extremely terrible fact that boys and girls are just awfully bad at picking up signs of love and attraction sometimes. You were like “Hi Crush, I exist” and still, nothing works for you there. Nowadays, there are plenty of people who spend a great deal of time wondering how to make “that” someone loved them back. Poor hoooomans! Hheh~

Still. Whatever happens, make sure to love yourself first. Make your life play with beautiful colors. Make it fly with all the glitters and butterflies around. People tend to be attracted to someone who knows themselves better, people who displays love to their life no matter how pretty or shitty it was were always…always the prettiest. 

Men and women are way too different creatures but they’re just people. Maybe in different types or gender but you guys are still the same in one point, yeah? Find it out for yourself and you might have your dream come true in no time. Good luck!

The Perks of trying not to Fall in Love.

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It’s been quite a long time of saying no and I’m losing all the reasons and excuses defending myself in never wanting to fall for someone again. Not anytime soon, I’d say. Maybe at the very young age, loving was easy but as we grow up, committing will feel irrational. When you get hurt, It’ll make your heart and mind waver. Learning will come but doubt will follow.

I must admit, there was this time of my life when I was head over heels for the wrong one. The shallow motivator of my young self. I remember asking myself some random why’s and why’s then things broke down and everything shattered leaving me shock and defenseless of that hurt. Right then, there was this click-click-then-snap!!!

That very young love had allowed me to figure out the beauty and ugliness of relationship and love. Early stages of romantic relationship can be exhilarating but things like that can be easily nullified as well.  In love, there’s no such thing as forever and always. Maybe you got yourself a great boyfriend or a loving husband, maybe a kickass friend or an amazing family but let’s face it: things were not always that perfect and such forever sometimes, only lasted for like a day or an hour or more.

We’re all living in a world that’s been jammed with pride, selfishness and greed; brimming with different sick and poor intentions to others. At some point, we’ve been hurt, criticized, broken and betrayed by someone we’ve trusted and loved.

Untrusting and sometimes being difficult had become me for so long that I can no longer remember when it even started. Maybe because that innocent and naive trust I had got trashed and used up merciless that’s why.

Being in love was not a voluntary process. It may come at the very wrong place or time and yeah, plainly with some sort of a wrong person or so. Women at my age fall as easy as tripping over someone. You often here them say: “He likes me, and I’m so kilig and I think, I want to spend the rest of my life with him, forever.”

Ugh.

So whoever you are that is reading this, please be smart enough when it comes to your heart and life.  Feelings can be temporary and that happiness can fleet as fast as the blink of an eye.

Being envious of some person with great love and life was fine. They’re lovely anyway. What’s wrong is when you decided to commit over that jealousy you have. Try not to love just because of that longing or loneliness inside. You’ll end up drowning yourself in some depths of darkness and it’ll be hard for you to spark up. That’s what I’ve been telling myself for some time now. It works. There are billions of people in this planet and there’s no way not to find that someone who can love you back.

Remember, no matter where you are in this journey, you are always loved. Maybe by someone you know or someone you do not.  It was no longer a man’s world so stood up. Go build yourself and wait till that someone knocks up. It can be someone close or not but who knows right? Someday.

My Job-Bullshit-Detector

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I hate my job and I’m so full of it. I so fucking hate it. Yes, I hate it that much and it makes me want to throw up.

Did you know that a poorly managed team can make a person miserable? Believe me, it can. I started hating this job for months now and it was bad! Horrible I must say. I find no more joy of working and I sincerely hate my job right now.

I thought this would be a good place to start but fuck nah! Every day I would force myself to get up and spend those nine precious hours of my life dealing with so much shit from my boss. Nine fucking hours! Can you imagine? Heck, I can’t even call this a work in the first place.

I know that there will be times when any job was a good job but not always. There are parts of jobs that will make us feel terrible and this is certainly one of them. This job was utterly depressing to the extent of me, considering of quitting without even having a different job to go to.

I’m usually polite and good but not today. Let’s make today as an exception, okay?

Phew.